fuck ...im dead

aahhh...

my day was dumb, time passed by so quickly...as in wala akong napala.. hindi man lang ako nakatikim ng all-time favorite kong inihaw na tenga... sayang! si manong isaw kasi eh...laging wala. As of now kinakabahan parin ako sa buhay ko... alam mo parang walang direksyon na itong buhay ko... nangyayari na ata ung bagay na kinakatakutan ko eh ung mawalan ng direksyon.. but still i'm hoping na maayos ko ito.. and i believe na maayos ko ito...sa tulong ng dios sa taas i will!..

clueless parin ako sa pesteng histology na yan!...
ang bilis kasi ng panahon eh..isang minuto nakatunganga ka maaliwalas ang panahon.. pag idlip mo madaling araw na pala, at ikaw na lang ang gising. wala ka namang magawa kung hindi makinig sa mga tono ng bandang "gin blossoms'". hindi ko mapaliwanag kung baket iyon ang tema ng musika ngaun..metal head ka diba ? tanong ko sa sarili ko...
hindi ako nakasagot... ang naisip ko lang... ( siya ang dahilan)

malabo akong tao. mahirap akong intindihin.mahirap unawain. Sana isang araw magising ako na lahat ng pinangarap ko nasa harapan ko na... lalo na sya. hindi naman masama ang managinip. libre nga iyon eh!.. kaya masarap managinip...kahit pa gising.Minsan lang kita napanaginipan, pero parang ilang dekada mo na akong binabangungot.

BAKET ??...

di ko din alam ang sagot.ang tanging pakiramdam ko. grabe kakaiba. parang isa ka sa mga tinadhana na tunay na at dapat na dumaan sa landas ng aking buhay.. shet. ni wala man lang rason?.. wala ang sagot..

basta nakita lang kita sa friendster... tapos kinuha ko email add mo... nagkausap tayo... it was fine... that piece of running event was twice glorifying than salvation itself. binigay mo sakin ung cell no mo. i texted you immediately.. and happily you replied.

That was it.

Friendship just got itself super novaed'... nagsun sim para libre. i can call you, you can call me at a price that dont bite everybodies ass off!... days passed and batteries got burned.. all day and day all we talked endlessly. about stuffs and things in the past. (-.-) .because of constant(K) communication our friendship evolved. it stood greater heights. at heights that could break a man down. a place im not familiar.

but im happy.

hapiness is the only thing defined

that hapiness lasted months..sadly just months. fuckin school got by. my fear just arrived..i'm afraid that your school would engulf you and tear you away from me. thou shalt notbut it did. my worst nightmare happened. and a year passed...it still haunts me.
hanggang ngaun!!!

the greatest question is.. kelan?.. when? kelan ulet kita makakasama?my heart pounds excitedly..hoping that my hands could touch you againif there is just one thing that is inside my heart ..it is you...my queen of snow...