under the black light

just like the black light that it emits...
my life is still upsidedown...
runs in the opposite way.
stucked in the darkness.
confused by the thoughts that bothered me all througout..
fuck this life
but i thank him for knowing you..

but why..?..why do i feel this way..in which i dont have the right to,
i feel jealous of all the things that take part of your attention..maybe im just too paranoid...
i dont know/// i got no idea about you.. all im thinking is what will happen.. will god give way...will he let it be..

i sense fear. fear of not having you..or even losing you..i never wanted that to..
im sick..im ill.. all because of what i feel everyday.. i need someone to comfort me...someone whom i can feel being loved.. i needed someone.. someone to love...someone to spend the rest of my life..

i think that someone is you...

but how can this be real?...if i stay behind the monsters i've created.. beside the shadows that i cast..?

i wish you're alright...i wish you stay the way you are..the one i fell inlove with..
but anyways...ill see you in my dreams..