i'm minutes away from being paranoid.

11:47 the time that i woke up. pagkagising ko., lahat halos may ginagawa bukod sakin.so inayos ko lang sarili ko. tapos naghanap ng pagkakaabalahan. Naglinis ako ng bahay.nagpunaspunas, nagpulotpulot ng kalat, para naman di masabi na palamunin lang ako dito sa bahay,
"which really is".

haay...ngaung araw, pakiramdam ko sabog nanaman ako na masaya. damned because i didnt get what i've always wanted some months ago and happy because atleast it's over! PEACE OF MIND.

ilang araw ko din pinagdasal na sana matahimik na itong utak ko sa kakaisip dun sa babaeng un. samantalang dati lagi kong binabanggit na sana mapasaakin sya. which turned out in the opposite way. too bad she's not the real thing. over-all rating 10... but not applicable kung paguusapan ay REALations. tae...

pero ayus lang un..mabuti nga'at natauhan ako sa mga ginagawa ko.mabuti nalaman ko na hindi xa ang gf material na hinahanap ko.god is good. xa ang sumagot sa prublema ko..thanks to the good lord!!!

as of know were still friends! and a heck of a friendship binds us!.. the best parin na magi ko xang superfriend! kasi tingin ko mas ok na ganun na lang kami palage...mas ok ! the greatest feeling is being with her.lahat ng kalokohan nagagawa ko.lahat ng sikreto ko nasasabi ko.we almost knew each other in just a couple of months..

nagkamali kasi ako..namisinterpret ko xa..for being sweet! caring! and lovable!...deym!i'm a foo and i cried..back on drugs make me numb...the only state i'd rather is to be with you

PERO !! ngaun ok na ako! yehey!! i hope those miseries wont visit me again...i hope to find myself in a new me
Thanks !